Thursday, February 20, 2014

Two for the Road: Snapshots on Paris's Line Two







I’ve always lived on the Left Bank. Other than an apartment in the Marais during my first visit to Paris when I was fifteen, I’ve always been a left-dweller. I lived in the friendly fourteenth during a semester of study abroad in 2012 and now I’ve switched to its swankier sister to the north, the sixth, in a decidedly un-swanky studio above the Jardin de l’Observatoire. When I’m away from the city, my heart warms at the mention of places like Saint-Michel, the Luxembourg Gardens and Montparnasse. It’s here where I feel a semblance of belonging, where non-Parisians mistake me for a local, asking for directions to the boulevard Saint-Germain in timid French, where I can’t help but smile—even when my feet are sopping wet from the constant rain—and where I come out of the Port-Royal station feeling exactly as I do when I get out of my car in my garage in Minnesota. Home.

So what about the Right Bank, where the other million or so Parisians live? Where do they feel at home? By following the arc of the métro’s line two that cuts through the heart of the right side from west to east, I’m setting out to catch a coup d’œil of my northern neighbors in the places that make them feel at home.

On sunny, cloudless days like today in Paris, il faut profiter du soleil. The sun is hard to come by in Paris’s fall and winter months and any occasion to conveniently forget my beat-up umbrella is reason enough to go on a small-scale adventure. At Raspail, I study the stops listed on the wall. I’m at the center of line six, equal distance from either end of line two. Eeny, meeny, miny…moe. I squeeze onto the train and head west for Porte Dauphine.

THE EDGE OF THE WORLD
Porte Dauphine, 2:23 P.M.


An empty bench sits along the avenue Foch

 “Bonjour, madame,” One woman says, greeting another with a smile and kisses on the cheek. I follow them up the concrete steps, heading for the second sortie which will take me out to the avenue Foch. The métro station is empty this Wednesday afternoon, save for a few well-coiffed, white-haired women keeping pace with children, presumably grandchildren. It’s fitting that the first thing I hear is politeness, for here in the sixteenth arrondissement, my impression has always been that order and refinement reign supreme in one of Paris’s upper-class haunts.

For a long time, the sixteenth has remained for me a piece of the Parisian mystery that I haven’t had much desire to investigate. Coupled with the seventeenth, I’ve somehow managed to avoid dipping my toes into the west of Paris much at all, except for visits along its outskirts to the Palais de Chaillot terrace at Trocadéro for photos of the Eiffel Tower and a sprint to catch a Beauvais Airport shuttle at Porte Maillot.

Perhaps my disinterest stems from its reputation as a place full of money—even saying la seizième carries that connotation—signifying a lack of general joie de vivre. The district is fourth in terms of average household income, after the eighth, seventh and sixth. I’ve clung to the idea and heard myself repeating that the sixteenth is “new money” and just across the Seine is “old money” in the seventh, a sort of West and East Egg for the Paris crowd.

            One night recently, atop the nearby Arc de Triomphe, I braved some unpleasantly harsh winds and took in the city’s panorama through watering eyes. This is the City of Light, they say, but the lights themselves cast subtle, soft yellows on the architecture, making Paris glow discreetly—quite different from the retina-burning quality of places like New York’s Times Square. Through the pink, light-polluted vista, I peered southwest at a long, tree-lined boulevard with few lights dotting the blackness, contrasting with the red and white stripes of the traffic flowing down the Champs-Élysées. I took note of how peculiarly empty and quiet it looked, emanating out from the star of traffic towards the darkness of the Bois de Boulogne. The panoramic map told me it was the avenue Foch.

Emerging out of the Art Nouveau métro exit onto the avenue—Paris’s widest—it feels brighter than most of the city during the daytime. The chestnut trees lining the avenue are tucked closely to the buildings, leaving broad expanses of gravel sidewalks out in the sunlight. It’s a desert for tourists, and really anyone, for that matter. The avenue lists some of the most expensive real estate in the world, home to mansions and palaces of wealthy international families.

I go west to the Place du Maréchal de Lattre de Tassigny—an easy enough name to remember—and cross the boulevard Périphérique, the major ring-road that separates Paris proper from its suburbs, to enter the Bois de Boulogne. I dart dangerously across each road, always with the thought that one surprise car could be my end. The noise of the freeway, the frost-kissed grass, the skyscrapers of the business district La Défense looming over the trees in the hazy distance and the sidewalk giving way to a dirt path peppered with dead leaves give me a sudden pang of nostalgic familiarity. Even the children playing soccer next to the highway remind me of my childhood years before I realize that there are no girls playing and that they’re playing le football. No, I remind myself, this isn’t West River Parkway in Minneapolis. I pass a docking station with neat rows of public bikes with their handlebars turned to the right, a man to my left urinating out of his white delivery truck and I stand, watching clusters of smiling, retired men tossing heavy silver balls during a game of pétanque. While this is the edge of Paris—the edge of the world, it seems—this is still as Paris as Paris can be.


COMPATRIOTS AND EXPATRIATES
Charles de Gaulle-Étoile, 2:54 P.M.


A tourist poses for a photo in front of the Arc de Triomphe

My eyes flick over the yellowed wall tiles as the escalator pulls me up from the platform at Charles de Gaulle-Étoile. Are the tiles intentionally yellow or is the sickly scent of urine clouding my judgment? These are the types of things I wonder about on public transportation. The station has both a Bonne Journée chain bakery and a Souvenirs de Paris shop, two tip-offs that I’ve entered a tourist-catering zone. With my camera strap around my neck and a notepad in my hand, I blend in with the passersby, speeding between lines one, two and six, the RER A and the exits. You’re more likely to find a group of tourists at the turnstiles, unsure of how to insert their tickets and blocking the flow of passengers than to find Parisians swiping their Navigo passes and disappearing out of sight.

Charles de Gaulle-Étoile, located at what was once the Place de l’Étoile and is now the Place Charles de Gaulle (named after the former general and president of France) brings me to perhaps the most strikingly evident spot of globalization in all of Paris—and arguably the furthest from the local culture—the Champs-Élysées. With origins dating back to the seventeenth century, it has been long revered as “the most beautiful avenue in the world.” Even today, it remains an aesthetically beautiful place—for tourists to flock to for photo opportunities and shop at internationally recognizable luxury and commercial brands. What was once a grandiose symbol of Paris and a favorite strolling spot with the locals with its ten lanes of traffic, pruned, rectangular chestnut trees and its vista of the Place de la Concorde and the Louvre, the avenue now bears the footprints of a commodified promenade of foreign visitors.

“There is everything that you want on the Champs-Élysées,”[1] French-American singer Joe Dassin once claimed in his song “Aux Champs-Élysées,” frequently sung by accordionists on the métro and cardboard music boxes in tourist shops (I’m shamelessly guilty of owning one myself). If by “everything that you want,” Dassin meant perusing through what is now a global, brand-driven mélange of stores like Abercrombie & Fitch (American), Disney (American), Zara (Spanish) and H&M (Swedish), then his lyrics would be quite faithful to the typical experience on the avenue today. It’s really no wonder that the avenue is home to such brands who can afford the average €13,255 per square meter it costs in annual rent for retail space on what is the world’s third most expensive shopping street[2]—nothing to exactly sing about.

Standing at the edge of the eight-lane traffic circle around the Arc de Triomphe, I’m more of a compatriot than I am an expatriate. The photo-snapping crowd speaks more English—specifically American-accented English—than anything else I can hear. The coupling of English and the conglomeration of shops equates to little more than a Gallicized version of the Mall of America, my hometown landmark of over-the-top materialism. I bear virtually no self-consciousness as I join my fellow countrymen in the excitement of taking photos of the famous neoclassical Napoléon-commissioned arch.

I’m also targeted by young girls who pretend to be deaf and mute, hoping I’ll sign their petition and donate money—or distract me enough to rifle through my bag. “Non,” I say sharply before walking away. I’m confronted three more times, with the volume of my voice raising each time. I lean up against a fence and watch them walk by, speaking amongst themselves.

This is the reality of the Champs-Élysées today; visitors fly in from faraway countries to shop at familiar megastores, order their meals from pricy English language menus, get a few snapshots of the area, donate money to scam artists and then duck back down into the métro. The French are few and far between, and perhaps for good reason.

These are not the paradisaical Elysian Fields that they once were. Pas du tout.

GOLDEN GATES

Monceau, 3:17 P.M.


Men stand near the gilded gate and rotunda of Parc Monceau

          
The train is noticeably fuller than it was six stops ago. As we travel east, I assume the influx of passengers is headed for the station Anvers to get off in Montmartre. “Monceau,” the recorded woman’s voice says over the loudspeaker, phrasing it like a question. “Monceau,” She confirms. I’m getting off in the eighth arrondissement.

The sun is lowering in the sky, cutting dramatic shadows through the thick haze. I pass under the sumptuous, gilded gate of Parc Monceau and past the rotunda, small by French standards. On the rare occasion that I think of Monceau, I think in gold. Maybe it’s the golden sunlight touching the buildings, the golden fences surrounding the park or even the apparent wealth that permeates the area. Perhaps telling of the eighth’s privilege, the few residences located on the park have twenty-four hour access, despite its closing at sundown for non-residents.

Upon entering the park, I take a left, passing green benches of teenagers and twenty-somethings flicking through their iPhones. I meet faux Corinthian columns surrounding a small pond where seagulls squawk angrily after one another. A few children go giggling by on scooters, trailed by their smartly dressed mothers. Windows of stately façades peer over the treetops like a neighbor’s eyes over a fence. Large stretches of green grass are empty, forbidden to walkers—something I may never get used to about this city—and the landscape is swathed in golden light despite being only just past three. Strollers in the park are reduced to silhouettes against the lowering afternoon sun, but its cinematic quality gets lost in my photos.

 I climb a short bridge over a stream and take in the view of the whole park. Parc Monceau was planned in 1769 by Philippe d'Orléans, Duke of Chartres who wanted to create a public park in an Anglo-Chinese style that would surprise and amuse visitors, as the park contains various follies, such as an Egyptian pyramid and a Dutch windmill.[3] The park was revamped during Baron Haussmann’s transformation of Paris in the 1860s and has changed little since.

As I leave, camera still firmly around my neck for the occasional photo, I write illegible notes because the cold is slowing the muscles in my fingers. A group of older gentlemen cluster around the rotunda, laughing. I think they see me take their picture. Monceau is like a private party that I’ve snuck into and I know that I’m being watched. I follow a man with a Dalmatian out and down into the métro, slipping out. 


THE PARTY CONTINUES
Pigalle, 3:37 P.M.


Sex shops line the boulevard de Clichy
         

 “Excusez-moi, madame,” an African man in traditional attire passing out fliers prompts me at the top of the stairs. I shake my head, turning around him as I take in my first breaths of Pigalle: weed. I’ve been here many times before, but I look around me. I mean, really look. Five stops northeast from Monceau, the air is casual here, louder and less occupied with self-importance. Maybe it’s the weed.

Gone are the grandmothers of Place Dauphine, the tourists of Étoile and the privileged scooter children of Monceau. On the boulevard de Clichy, each person who passes by is a character: a twenty-something man with a sandy-colored beard and a guitar case slung over his back, another man shoving the last bite of a Quick burger into his mouth, girls with ripped tights laughing their way out of the métro station. Workers converse mid-street and a group of RATP Sureté men cluster, flicking their cigarette ashes onto the street corner. People stare curiously as I take pictures.

The curling architectural details and fanciful boulangeries I’ve grown accustomed to and come to expect this afternoon have been mostly replaced with crumbling corners, simple windows and kebab shops. As a sort of answer to Amsterdam’s red light district, Pigalle has long been known for its sex. This stretch of the boulevard de Clichy heading west to Place Blanche is ripe with sex museums, sex emporiums, sex shows, strip clubs and nightclubs, a few of which bear the imaginative names of “Sexodrome,” “Lady’s” and “Pussy’s.”

During the day, these places are fatigued, resting for their nightly adventures. The area is virtually void of visitors at this time of day and perhaps only an adventurous few have come down from the Sacré-Cœur to make a quick stop down the street to the Moulin Rouge cabaret, where they are mildly disappointed—like I was at fifteen—that it doesn’t quite have the look or charm as the studio set from the Baz Luhrmann film and that it costs a pretty penny to see an actual show. When the sun goes down, the area is a blur of neon light. There are Irish pubs, grocery stores and fast food joints sandwiched between sex shops and clubs, and families with strollers walking through crowds of Pigalle patrons.

I stand for a while, watching the comings and goings of the customers of the kebab shop across the street. People talk loudly around cars in the middle of the road unapologetically, and the energy is picking up. For as long as Pigalle has been Pigalle—the quartier that entertained artists like Toulouse-Lautrec and Picasso—the party continues. The sun lowers and people are on the move. Pigalle is beginning to wake up.


THE STREET IS OURS
Barbès-Rochechouart, 4:14 P.M.


The busy platform at Barbès-Rochechouart
           

Line two is packed. It’s full of the Montmartre crowd, tourists and bobos (Paris’s hipsters) alike, aiming to transfer to line four, which will take them back to the city center and the comfort of famous sites. The train ascends like a rollercoaster up the tracks, where it will be elevated above-ground for four stops. The brakes stop us suddenly more than once and people who weren’t holding on scream and topple into other passengers. We stop once more, intentionally, for our arrival at Barbès-Rochechouart. I slip my camera away into my bag.

            This is the place I’ve been (perhaps unfairly) warned about when I’ve asked locals which areas to avoid in Paris in order to stay safe. Most expats I know have never heard of the place and the ones who have have told me stories such as being pickpocketed at the massive Tati store that takes up several blocks just outside the station. After living for four years in downtown Minneapolis, I can tell it’s a similar story for Barbès: People who spend the least amount of time in a place will be the strongest advocates for avoiding it altogether. In Cedar-Riverside, my former multi-ethnic neighborhood and home to the largest refugee and immigrant Somali population outside of Somalia, I’d receive concerned looks when I told people where I lived and went to school. I’d inevitably receive an earful on perhaps the epicenter of fear, a 1970s apartment complex, once inhabited by Mary Tyler Moore and now respectfully nicknamed “the Crack Stacks.” In sum, immigrant neighborhoods are to be avoided. Or something like that.

            This is my second time at Barbès. I once came here to deliver a package while I was working as an intern at a tourist agency about two years ago. I had gone straight to the side-street hotel, handed over the envelope of Eiffel Tower tickets and Paris maps for the arriving tourist group to the concierge and I was on my way back to the office near Bastille. Subsequent glimpses had been from the window of a line four train, staring down into the masses of people below.

I pause for a moment on the platform, letting the passengers pass while considering a photo of the enormous Tati store and its neon “Les plus bas prix” (“The lowest prices”) sign against the backdrop of the white domes of the Sacré-Cœur. I’m at a perfect vantage point. As soon as I put my fingers on the zipper of my bag, I’m approached by a man and have attracted the eyes of several other observers. I forget the picture and walk down the steps.

            Halfway to the ground level, police officers have stopped two young men, one North African and the other black. The four of them are standing as if waiting for something and I continue down the steps. One man nearly bowls me over as he briskly sifts through a stack of euro bills. I look for an out-of-the-way spot to stand on the trash-littered street, but everywhere is taken. Men swarm, resting against every available pole and I wonder what they’re doing. They’re not talking much to one another or smoking, but just standing there. I pass by and several of them turn their heads toward me and smile, one uttering “Bonjour, mademoiselle.” I continue east on the boulevard Barbès, passing wedding dress shops and cell phone stores with handwritten signs.

As a piece of a larger quartier called the Goutte d’Or, Barbès’s cosmopolitan spirit is a result of its growing population of people of foreign origins. The eighteenth arrondissement counts over a quarter of its total population as of immigrant origin, compared to about nine percent for the total population of Paris.[4] Most of the immigrant population is from North Africa or sub-Saharan Africa. I look up at the Haussmann buildings that look little different than in other quartiers. The buildings are occupied by members of the middle class—not necessarily the shopkeepers who own the ground floor businesses—who have seized the opportunity to live within the notoriously expensive bounds of the city, which is quickly being wiped over by gentrification.[5]

Everyone seems to have a plaid pink plastic bag with navy blue lettering in their hands. These bags come from Tati, the capital of low prices in Paris and have come to symbolize Barbès, the neighborhood in which Tati was born in 1949. Until the 1940s, Barbès relied on dense, traditional commercial activity and saw a far smaller influx of shoppers and visitors than its line two neighbor, Anvers. Jules Ouaki, an entrepreneur from Tunisia, saw this as an opportunity to attract more people to this “working-class and miserable” quartier, and opened the very first Tati.[6] Since then, Barbès and Tati have become inseparable; you can hardly speak about one without the other. Parisians in search of the lowest prices have made the area in and around Tati into a sort of marketplace of frenetic deal-searching. In fact, a real marketplace takes place on Wednesday and Saturday mornings underneath the elevated train tracks.

I’m back on the platform, groaning along with everyone else as a train pulls in but doesn’t stop. The platform is wall-to-wall people and a man behind me lights up a cigarette just behind my ear while we wait. There’s more talking here than I’ve ever seen in the métro and I can’t help but look around at all the different people. Once on the train I’m jammed against the door. The sunset casts orange light over the scene as we pass over the Gare du Nord train tracks.

This is not the Paris I know, but it’s a Paris home to a rich, cross-cultural humanity at the heart of the city’s future. This is a facet of Paris's reality that faces the tensions that accompany assimilation, integration and racial profiling and is quickly changing what it means to be a Parisian.  La rue est à nous, a Tati marketing slogan once proclaimed. The street is ours.


           
PEOPLE ARE STRANGE
Père-Lachaise, 4:08 P.M.


A couple strolls through the cemetery
          

“DOCTEUR EN MÉDECINE,” one gravestone reads. Three words to summarize a person’s seventy years of life is shockingly strange, but not unexpected in the Père-Lachaise cemetery. Occupying 110 acres in the twentieth arrondissement, Père-Lachaise, along with the Paris Catacombs, has become an unusual and macabre tourist destination where the remains of millions of Parisians are interred.

I’m back on line two on a Saturday afternoon. I exit the Père-Lachaise station, cross the boulevard de Ménilmontant and enter through the cemetery’s side entrance in the unmarked stone perimeter wall blocking the dead from the living. My eyes are immediately drowned in a sea of tombs rising up the hill and my ears adjust to the sudden respite from the sound of traffic out on the boulevard. For a few euros, you can buy a map detailing the most famous graves, like Édith Piaf, Oscar Wilde and Jim Morrison, which have bizarrely become regular fixtures in Paris guidebooks.

The cobbled streets are slick with moisture from the heavy mist. The sky is darkening and people are few and far between, making for a distinctly spectral atmosphere. Birds are chirping quietly and a boy jumps out from behind a crumbling tomb, scaring his little brother. Couples walk hand in hand, stopping occasionally to look out over the city as they climb higher and higher. From the cemetery’s heights, this is where Eugène de Rastignac declares “It’s between you and me now!” to Paris at the end of Le Père Goriot, Balzac’s 1835 masterpiece. Instead of vengeance proclamations, the top of the cemetery has a lovely vantage point where you can take a seat on a bench and look out to the south and west and see the Tour Montparnasse and the Eiffel Tower on the horizon.

Père-Lachaise is a library of sorts, documenting Paris’s history by the deaths of its people (In order to be buried in the cemetery, the deceased must have either died in Paris or lived in Paris). I study long-forgotten graves left deteriorating and rotting and enjoy the refreshing quietness. This is the perfect place to wander and imagine the stories behind the people buried below who will never know their bodies are now part of a collective site for tourists and Parisians alike.

A group of French speakers go by, including a woman clacking a green rolling suitcase behind her over the cobblestones. I wonder why in the world she chose to cut through the cemetery with her luggage. The cemetery is closing, so I walk with her and the other stragglers out to the exit. In the last dregs of sunlight, a man with a wild crop of hair, orange pants and a purple shirt zips by, shouting the lyrics to Madonna’s “Like a Prayer.” At Père-Lachaise, as in all of Paris, the unusual prevails.



ALIVE AND WELL
Nation, 5:11 P.M.


The columns and traffic at Place de la Nation
          

A Cherry Coke can rolls noisily out from under a seat as the train slows to a stop at Philippe Auguste. The moderate flow of passengers allows me to have a seat near the window, thankfully. It’s a relief to have space on the train. We pass the next stop, Alexandre Dumas, and I remember my friends who used to live on the rue de Charonne and making middle of the night runs for a hot pain au chocolat or two from its miraculous twenty-four-hour boulangerie. The eleventh arrondissement is one of the few parts of the rive droite to which I feel a strong connection. I was a terrified twenty-year-old intern at a travel agency on the rue Amelot, I was an accidental pigeon-feeder just across the bounds of the fourth in the Place des Vosges and I was an explorer of bars, clubs, cafés, restaurants, parks and opera in the slightly edgy, slightly grimy bobo haven. But I never went to Nation.  How many times had I found myself underground, switching from the two to the six, the one to the nine underneath Place de la Nation? The can rolls once more to a stop, signaling that we’ve made it to the end of the line—or the start of the line—and my last stop on this trip through Paris’s Right Bank.

I emerge from the confines of the underground out onto Place de la Nation, half in the eleventh and half in the twelfth. It’s eerily similar to the Place Charles de Gaulle, echoing the twelve-boulevard traffic circle and staunch reminders of the power of the French state. At the center is a bronze sculpture, Le Triomphe de la République: Marianne, the traditional personification of France, stands facing Bastille in a chariot being pulled by lions and is surrounded by further symbolism of the nation’s strength. Formerly the Place du Trône, it was once the site of mass executions by guillotine during the French Revolution and was renamed as the Place de la Nation in 1880.[7]

Where I found myself in good company taking photos of the Arc de Triomphe, I now find myself solo, stared at by people waiting for buses as I photograph the Doric columns that bookend the eastern end of the plaza. People cut in front of me to head towards businesses—French businesses, this time—I can see, like Darty and Printemps and buses roar by every few minutes. A man sits on a bench smoking both a pipe and a cigarette simultaneously. Night has fallen and the familiar frenetic French energy that was lost on the Champs-Élysées and subdued in the cemetery is alive and well once again.

*

It’s time for me to journey back to the Left Bank. I take a seat on line one next to a mother and her son and daughter. The girl, with blonde pigtails and messy lavender eye shadow and probably no more than six years old, curiously looks me up and down. She wordlessly knows that I’m not from here and certainly not from Paris. She’s right, I’m a temporary dweller and discoverer of Paris who’s found comfort on the Left and a newfound curiosity for the Right. Maybe someday I’ll hop the Seine, move in and have a different response to the question Which bank do you prefer?


But for now, I just smile at her and give up my seat, heading for home. 

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[1] Original French: Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Élysées
[2] Sarah Krouse, "Rents Escalate Along Paris's Champs Élysées." The Wall Street Journal, November 12, 2013. http://online.wsj.com/news/articles/SB10001424052702303460004579193720360371800
[3] “Un peu d’histoire sur le Parc Monceau,” Paris Connect. http://equipement.paris.fr/parc-monceau-1804
[4] Michel Pinçon and Monique Pinçon-Charlot, Paris : Quinze promenades sociologiques (Paris : Payot & Rivages, 2013), page 251.
[5] Michel Pinçon and Monique Pinçon-Charlot, Paris : Quinze promenades sociologiques, page 254.
[6] Emmanuelle Lallement, “Tati et Barbès : Différence et égalité à tous les étages,’’ Ethnologie française, vol. 35 (2005).
[7] “Place de la Nation,” Travel France Online, Last modified: 27 May 2013, http://www.travelfranceonline.com/place-de-la-nation-cours-de-vincennes-paris/

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

The City of Life


“…and everyone was drunk off Paris, high off ignorance, and hoping, praying, for indulgence to lead down a path of gold to the city of life.”
–anonymous Sharpie message on a bathroom tile in The Fifth Bar, rue Mouffetard

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     My desk is covered in half-open, overturned books and baguette crumbs. My kitchen is coffee-stained from my erupting espresso maker. My refrigerator is bare, except for jars of salsa with no tortilla chip partners and milk that is almost certainly expired. It's so late that the Eiffel Tower is invisible in the night except for two red lights glowing faintly like eyes suspended a thousand feet in the air. I’m in the throes of a new semester. My last semester.

     I’ve been in school something like twenty straight years at this point and boy, can I feel the weight of each and every one of them. In my fourth week of the semester, I’m decidedly lost, confused, challenged and feeling like I did back in swimming lessons when they tried teaching me how to tread water and all I ended up being capable of was not drowning. So maybe that’s all that matters at this point in my master’s degree. I may not be doing extraordinarily well or understanding much at all (What is translation theory?), but hey, I’m not drowning. I’m getting just enough oxygen to not need CPR!

     The weather is being a tease here. One minute, it’s sunny and I can hear kids playing in the park, and by the time I get outside, it’s overcast, I can feel freckles of raindrops on my face and the wind shoves my hair onto my lipstick. Today I found myself agreeing with someone that it’s cold outside. It was 54 degrees. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I must be becoming Parisian.

     Instead of my usual weekend routine of waking up after lunch and getting dressed around sunset, I decided to get some cultural things done this weekend and put my titre de séjour to work. Being under 26 and a resident of the European Union, I can, in short, get into any museum for free. To be honest, I feel exceptionally cool whenever I skip the ticket counter and just flash my passport at the ticket-taker like I’m kind of a big deal.

    I spent Sunday at the Louvre. I was determined to ignore the signs that direct everyone to the Mona Lisa as if to say, Okay, this way to your f-ing painting that you just paid twelve euros to get a selfie in front of before you high-tail to the Orsay. I wanted to wander through the more than 35,000 pieces of art and do some marveling. Or pretend-marveling. Because let’s be honest, it sometimes just feels good to look at art and pretend to be ultra-cultured. There's an art exhibition featuring Lady Gaga right now that I avoided because I can't handle the pretentiousness after I read that she cried over it. I followed up my meandering with some Tuileries-meandering where I called my dad for a long chat in those wonderful green metal recliner chairs (They’re so comfortable, I swear!).



The Mona Lisa's paparazzi
Oh, hey! It's like a horrible bathroom pic.. in the Louvre.
'MERICA

     Monday, my unofficial third weekend day this semester, was spent staring at completely different art at the Centre Georges Pompidou. Let it be known that I have never, ever been inside the Pompidou. Ever. It’s essentially the Walker Art Center in Minneapolis’ bigger French cousin. As one of Paris’s most-visited and well-known museums—and certainly its ugliest on the outside—it’s really strange that I’d never set foot inside before. Maybe it’s because I’m a huge complainer when it comes to modern art. It really gets under my skin and makes me say things I don’t mean, like "It’s not even art!" It makes me feel something—annoyance, frustration and an overwhelming urge to slap someone who paints a canvas all one color—so that is probably proof in itself that it’s art. 

     I don’t really want to get into it, but I can say that after plucking up the energy and thankfully going solo to spare others of my ranting, I...I liked it

     I liked the view it has from the top floor. I liked the escalator ride on the outside of the building. I even liked some of the art. Some of it. Baby steps here, people.






     I walked all the way home that night. I watched ice-skaters zip around on the temporary rink in front of the sparkling Hôtel de Ville backdrop. I crossed the Seine to the Île de la Cité at dusk to the tune of a man playing the saxophone on a bench. I smirked at the tourists sitting on the benches next to the hedges on the Parvis du Notre-Dame that I know for a fact are riddled with hidden rats. I bought a ham-and-egg crêpe on the rue de la Harpe and veered behind the Musée de Cluny to stuff my face because I guess it’s not really the thing to do, eating while walking.  

     I read a quote by Hemingway recently that goes: “Paris is so very beautiful that it satisfies something in you that is always hungry in America.” I don’t know what I’m hungry for in America—Art? Crêpes?—but I know that when I’m here, in Paris, it is so very beautiful and that I am satisfied.

Love,
Rachel

P.S. Here's part 2 of my January video.


Thursday, January 23, 2014

I Loved Paris in the Springtime

      Today is the two-year anniversary of the start of my semester in Paris. When I'm older and hitting milestones like my fortieth high school reunion (like my mom is this year), I know two years will seem like absolutely nothing. But to me, here and now, I can hardly believe it. I can't be appreciative enough of my semester here in Paris during college because I was lucky enough to spend it with fourteen other fascinating, hilarious, fun and sweet people who made me laugh, who explored Paris and Europe with me, who shared the burden of the ridiculousness of life in Paris and who made me break down into a damn mess when it was time to say goodbye (and, frankly, the entire summer of 2012). If not for all of them (all of you, if you're reading this), I wouldn't be back here in Paris at all. I met up with Amelia, one of the fifteen of us Paris alumni, for coffee today on the rue d'Assas and we reminisced, agreeing that we were so incredibly lucky for our time.  So, as I write this, I raise a bottle (You wouldn't expect me to use a glass now, would you?) of cheap Bordeaux to you, mes amis, for the memories and for the inspiration to do this again.

Love,
Rachel



Latin Quarter

Atop the Arc de Triomphe

Fontainebleau

Easter at Notre-Dame

The Highlander

Outside The Highlander

Eiffel Tower

On the terrace of Mary-Kate's beautiful foyer on the boulevard St-Michel (near my current apartment)

Giverny

Versailles




Rome

Santorini, Greece

Marseille
Our last get-together with everyone on the Champ de Mars

Steps of St-Etienne-du-Mont



Venice

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

The Long and Winding Road


    A woman stands at baggage claim ripping into a new Marlboro carton, waiting for her suitcase. A couple stands kissing on the moving sidewalk, oblivious to the rest of the travelers and, to be perfectly honest, lucky they didn't get an elbowing from me as I scraped by them. I'm back in Paris, if it weren't obvious enough.
     
     I spent just under a month back at home in Minnesota and it was as glorious as I predicted. After arriving home sans luggage (Lost at Schiphol Airport) and sans 40-euro bottle of duty-free wine I specially bought for our Christmas dinner (Confiscated at Schiphol Airport), I spent my days: sleeping till the afternoon, nourishing myself with Nordeast, frosting, root beer, oreos, bagels and peanut butter, driving cars, researching my family ancestry, watching Netflix until 3 AM every night (New Girl, Blackfish, The Shining and a feeble attempt at The Hunger Games before I lost interest), reading non-school material (On the Map: Why the World Looks the Way it Does by Simon Garfield), going to concerts, playing the piano, shopping, gambling, trying out new restaurants, getting a new phone to replace my stolen iPhone, skiing for the first time in ten years with my sister and realizing my lessons served me well from back in the day and spending lots of time with my favorite Minnesotans. But, alas, there are only so many days a person can go without putting on real clothes and not feel like they're at the Overlook Hotel. I walked around the house shouting "REDRUM!" whenever my mom had her back turned.
     
     Goodbyes are hard, especially because I won't be home again until at least September. But it was time to finish up this master's degree and continue living my Paris dreams or whatever, so I left. I have a long road ahead of me.



Part One of my January video

     For someone who loves traveling, I sort of hate it. I mean, the act of traveling...well, it sucks. No matter what, I can guarantee at least several of these will happen: I won't sleep more than twenty minutes on any flight, I'll get stuck next to the baby that cries louder than it normally would just to punish the rest of us for not having kids, I'll have no room overhead for my carry-on, so under my legs it goes, my flight will be delayed, airport security will dig through my meticulously-packed bags despite complying with all the rules (Especially at Shithole Schiphol Airport) or my ears won't pop and I'll start whimpering in agony to myself for the last fifteen minutes. Or if none of the above happen, I'll have a unique situation like on Sunday when I got to my apartment and my landlady locked me out (long story) and I was so jetlagged that I tried sleeping in my hallway against my door until she got home three hours later.

     But I made it. I'm in Paris. Everything is fine and I'm not flying again for over a month. 

     To backtrack quite a bit, December was a blur. My friend Ashley from high school managed to fly out from Boston to visit for a weekend and I had a great time introducing her to Paris and to Europe in-between my classes that I couldn't skip and conference calls she had to make because she technically didn't take any time off from work. I made her walk till her feet were borderline sprained and barked at her to get off my futon, stop being jetlagged and go out, because you don't waste your three days in Paris being tired. (You just don't, Ashley.) Being cold-weather natives at heart, we sat outside with a blanket for dinner in the Place du Tertre and drank wine on the Quai des Grands Augustins, as well as hitting the obvious spots like the Louvre, the top of Notre-Dame, the Champs-Elysées and the Eiffel Tower (though she wouldn't climb it). It's a great thing to have an old friend in this big city.

Ashley & I in the Place des Vosges
     The rest of the month was devoted to school. I had an awful cold for a week or two that had me going through a box of tissues a day and coughing so badly my ribs hurt. Basically I kissed any and every social invitation goodbye and hunkered down in my chambre de bonne until everything that I had procrastinated on got unprocrastinated. In the process of writing close to forty pages in a week, I was missing the simpler days of the low-stress classes of my study abroad semester and the driving passion I had for my French degree that I don't have for translation. If any college students are reading this, you need to realize your finals could be a lot worse. You could be a graduate student.

    Today, the official start of my last semester of school ever (I will not be doing a Ph.D. Do not let me think that's a good idea. It's not.) and I woke up early as I always do at the beginning. I felt daunted by the work ahead of me listed on my syllabi and doubted whether I can do this as I always do at the beginning. The RER B was bursting at the seams during the morning rush hour. I drank copious amounts of coffee and admired the beautifully overcast sky sheathing the Eiffel Tower in fog. I bought a book for class, Texaco by Patrick Chamoiseau, from Brian at The Abbey Bookshop, my favorite bookstore in Paris because he always gives me free coffee, sometimes with maple syrup (He's Canadian), and genuinely loves helping me find what I need. I imagine The Abbey is what Shakespeare & Co. once was before the tourists found it. 

     I took a long way home to avoid the RER B, taking the boulevard Saint-Michel to rue Monsieur le Prince and the Place de l'Odéon and winding through the nearly-empty Jardin du Luxembourg. The green metal chairs were all empty, a rare sight in the warmer months. January is a wonderful time in Paris because you feel like it's yours. It's not even very cold, despite all the complaining Californians and Parisians with very limited cold tolerances.
My last first day of school picture ever.
Foggy day in the Luxembourg Gardens
The pruned trees in winter always remind me of the vines in Sleeping Beauty.

rue Herschel
rue Michelet
     So as I start the new year, what did 2013 mean for me? It was probably my biggest year yet. I worked my ass off applying for graduate school, got in and spent months working on paperwork which included a visit to Chicago, somehow graduated from college with Latin honors, said goodbye to my little companion Ribby, and moved back to the city that makes me so, so happy. Moving here is the hardest thing I've ever done (so much more so than my semester in college) but I've somehow gotten this far. I try to view it like this: if you're going to do something hard, you might as well do it where you want to. I don't want to have regrets of what could have been.

What Grad School in France Has Taught Me

1. You can't get everywhere in thirty minutes or less. In fact, you can't get most places in thirty minutes or less, even though Mary-Kate and Ashley taught me I could travel 9,000 miles to Transylvania in "about twenty minutes."

2. You can't procrastinate like you did back in college. I'm finally learning that starting a research paper two days before it's due is really, really stupid.

3. The Eiffel Tower is really distracting. So is people-watching from my window, Deezer, Pinterest and old Britney Spears videos on YouTube circa 2001.

4. When a professor assigns you five books to read for the semester, you read them ASAP. You shouldn't read other books for fun.

5. You absolutely cannot skip class. Period. I think back on the days when I could Ferris Bueller-it in Montmartre during my study abroad semester and no one cared. That was such sweet freedom.

5. Google Calendar is sometimes the only thing keeping my life intact. I'm holding on for dear life.

6. Sleep can be the most fun part of the day. 

7. Saturdays, and even Fridays, are legitimate study days. For the first time in my life, any weekend day is now fair game to get things done.

8. Chocolate and wine is sometimes a meal. After spending most of my life with a certain nonchalance toward chocolate, I've recently realized that everyone's right. It's pretty good. And it sometimes replaces meals when I don't want to go get real groceries.

9. Doing your master's in France before you're 26 is really smart. In a word, discounts. I can get into any national museum for free and get reduced prices on a lot of things.

10. Doing your master's in France before you're 26 makes you the youngest. Everyone else has time to figure out their lives for a bit longer than me. When people ask what I was doing before this               career-wise, I have nothing to say. I'm the eternal underdog.

11. Wine and croissants will never let you down, but the RER will. My frown has been turned upside down so many times thanks to them.

12. Coffee is everything. 

13. Grad school in one year instead of two means everything is overly intense. Good luck trying to hold down a job on top of it.

14. Grad school in one year instead of two is a relief. I probably wouldn't be doing this at all if it were two.

15. Be really passionate about what you choose to study. It's so much harder if you're not.


     But the main thing I've learned from Paris is that you don't have to do what everyone else is doing. Let everyone else live up to those underlying expectations for what your twenties are supposed to be. I'm having a great time doing what I truly want to do.

Love,
Rachel